Saturday, December 12, 2009
in the full moonlight
Kissing under the shadow of umbrella trees
Nights will be twinkling, smelling of stars
Mountains will sway like areca nut palms
Roads will whistle to the tired tap of toes
Sparrows will colour the sky with songs
Rainbows will bounce from leaf to bough
Cotton clouds will dance with cotton feet
Rivers will blush over oblong cobblestones
Coursing with gaiety like the giggle of love
Now that the minutes are beyond counting
The tears undone, not a requiem chasing
The white of the shroud beginning fraying
The grooves of the epitaph furiously filling
Reducing lives, meanings to unread scrawl
Now in that solace of lonely unbecoming
Unchained free from the grief of forgetting
Now in that oblivion and at last knowing
What began empty, was empty, is empty
now. That is one truth and that is all
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Journeying down the seasons
Warmed by summer’s yellow
Enveloped by easy night
Riffled by languid winds
Touched by the sprinkle of rain
Our winters come together
On this one winter day
We are beginnings fated to middles
Our stories written in riddles
We are painless time
We were born with evenings
To disappear with twilight’s last
We are silent, we are still
And clocks in anguish run past
Friday, December 04, 2009
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Not Just Another Rape Story
Madhavankutty Pillai
Late last month, one Saturday night, Rajeshwary Khanna, while on her daily walk, saw a man rape a dog in public and screamed with shock. Onlookers gathered and beat up the rapist, a taxi driver from Bihar. It was a well-deserved thrashing. Half of Mumbai wants stray dogs killed, but they would surely baulk at rape. The mob then took the rapist to the police station, and when you get the State in on something, the story has to develop many new turns.
The police were reluctant to file a complaint but that was soon overcome by the intractability of the complainant, Khanna. They then deliberated over what to charge the rapist under (our rape laws are enlightened but not that enlightened). That was when Section 377 of the Indian Penal Code, fresh from a browbeating because it persecuted gay sex, suddenly made a fresh argument for its existence—it says having sex with an animal is illegal. The rapist was so charged and later sent to a government hospital to be inspected for animal hair in his nails and telltale marks on his private parts.
Since the police were in, the newspapers followed. One afternoon tabloid, Mid-Day, broke the story, and the next day, went on a mission to get justice for the dog-victim. Another newspaper, Hindustan Times, did a follow-up piece. Among others, these reports quoted rape case prosecutors, rape case defenders, a spokesperson for the gay community, an environment and animal law expert and animal rights activists. Some of the headlines that ensued were:
‘Medical exam will be clincher in dog rape’; ‘Haan, maine kiya’; ‘Historic trial for dog rapist’; ‘My friend’s been framed’; ‘Bitch traumatised’.
Some of the news reports went like this:
– “There is no need to take the bitch to court, but, if required, we will do that too.”
– “The man is so insensitive. He is a threat to society.”
– “The dog has been listless since the incident took place.”
– “There is no bleeding and we have not found any semen in the dog’s private parts. But we have sent samples for tests.”
If all this sounds slightly surreal, then it is. Women’s rights activists say that once upon a time if there was a rape case, the courtroom would overflow with every two-bit unemployed lawyer being present for the pleasure of looking at the victim. Laws have changed and victims have a semblance of dignity and protection now. But someone always finds a way to sell the word ‘rape’ to the basest voyeuristic instinct in us in the name of news and justice. If not human beings, even dogs would do.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
The sky is purple with monsoon clouds and since it is morning, a white sun is there behind smudging the ends of the rainsky. Except that there are no ends.
I, alone in a vastness of pure earth, waiting for the sky to pour itself down in arrows and drink me into itself. Except that there is no sky or I.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
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Friday, March 13, 2009
Within every woman was once a bird aflutter
Liquid eyes wondering at the great beyond
Inciting her to that unknown flight
Over the walls of mind, womb, man and god
To whiten, in the wake of her white feather flight,
The ink of the lines that they wrote for her
Within every woman was once that bird almost free
Inside every man is a cage
Monday, March 02, 2009
How we remember with unusual calm that walk up the brown mountain path
And us below the overhang of the umbrella tree and its jungle green
Cool in the black cold of its afternoon shadow in the yellow sun
That day was warm to the touch and we were dizzy velvet
We had walked through the zigzag of sheeny dragon flies
And seen a white butterfly, the only albino of that queendom
Heard the bees whimper and buzz in the pollen’s ecstasy
Watched a squirrel watch a sparrow jounce twig to twig
We kissed ascetic branches, stern, stout, gnarled and immortal
Like sylphs we talked to the birds and made the crickets call
Below us the canal was forking, it flowed blue, it filled many fields
We were like flightless clouds, astray in the languid wind
You then said: We must remember this, this walk up the brown mountain path.
And then the day fell mute, the sun blinked, twilight shimmered
We couldn't allow the night, we let ourselves go and trundled down
We rolled through the rough brown mountain road and its jutting rocks
Over the cobbles in the river’s gravelly bank and the weeds of the grey marsh
Until there was a gate, a door cut four ways, a key, a latch, a lock and a lamp
We are home, finally we are home, look we are home, I said.
But we would never be home again.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Note to self
Since I landed the new job, I have been meeting interesting people. I have met an ex-pickpocket who told me that in their trade the thumbnails are grown slightly long for that extra grip; a gang of boy-thieves who rob travelers trying to grab a wink or two in the grounds off CST Terminus and who all unanimously lied to me that they were planning to go straight; a man who had been written off for dead by his relatives to grab his land in Azamgarh, Uttar Pradesh and who then struggled his way back to life and then started an association of dead people; a girl who has a genetic disorder which is trying to kill her but who is refusing to give up no matter what despite a brain surgery and a liver transplant; a man who had been abused for a decade as a child but now uses that trauma to do acts of kindness expecting nothing in return; a tribal woman from Gujarat who saw a pamphlet and then took a train to Bihar where 100 people were walking 100 kilometres in the state’s interior and in which I was one of them…you get the drift. What concerns me is my inability to empathise with any of them, of being a party to that human condition which they are all experiencing in the full. All I feel is curiosity and that is enough for the journalist, but for the writer, curiosity will take him nowhere near the truths that he must reproduce in the worlds that he should create. I find myself near such truths and completely unable to comprehend it, much alone reproduce it, much alone create worlds with it. Note to self: send imagination for servicing.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
As is said, has been said and always will be said: every seed sown will sprout and at some point, in that ground where it germinated, there will then be a tree with branches, trunk, roots, fruits and leaves. If you have sown that seed and then watered the soil, that tree will come up. Once the mighty tree is before you, it is pointless to repent that this was not the one you wanted, that you erred in the sowing, that that was ignorance, that that was youth, that that was passion, that that was a delusion of the mind, that that was not you. For you did plant that seed and once you unleashed cause, what could effect do but follow. You will never be forgiven for it. That is truth.
Beware, therefore, of what you sow. You plant a seed every infinitesimal moment. Seed a weed and you will get desolation. Seed a queen-of-the-night and on some distant day, you will sleep amidst calming fragrances. That is the redemption which flows from your present. That is the only redemption given to you.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
grace
Man began first and in the beginning he was one and there was no another, man alone in the wide tundra of nothingness, impregnable though inky blackness enveloped him from end to end. To left and right and up and down and east and north and south and west, there was nothing, except him and barrenness but he would not give in unto that desolation. He carries that loneliness in his soul even today but into that loneliness too, he has not given in and from it too he has conceived grace.
Man then created the world. He cleaved open his self and unfurled the elements and then split them, from which fission universes exploded and then there were galaxies and stars and planets and many suns blazing from whose light he harnessed energies and then used those furies to breathe life into planets. He watered the primeval pool from which sprung acids and bacteria and amoeba and plants and fishes and reptiles and mammals and animals of many complexions and lengths. Life after life after life he went on enumerating and making, until, like god before, he had to do nothing and could remain at a distance watching with deep compassion as the many wondrous things he had made fertilised and replicated themselves. Worlds unbidden sprung up within worlds and benign and benevolent man evoked his grace and gave it unto each of his creations and this grace was reflected onto him too.